Pathways - Mic Reckless.mp3

[00:00.455]Which way will I take?
[00:03.264]Which road will bring me back to hope?
[00:06.339]My thousand pathways so far from where I wanna be
[00:11.682]Which way will I take?
[00:14.497]Which road will bring me back to hope?
[00:17.569]My thousand pathways so far from where I wanna be
[00:22.455]To my family dearest
[00:23.734]I won't be here by the time that you hear this
[00:25.532]I took the nearest pack of painkillers and I've never been so serious
[00:28.100]And babe I know the chances are you'll probably find this first
[00:30.896]And if you're reading this
[00:31.915]I'm sorry I'm typing my final words
[00:33.936]I hope...no, I know you'll end up hating me with every single fibre you have inside of your nerves
[00:39.492]I left you with a baby - maybe I should have tried for her
[00:42.026]But trust me, all I've done is get in the way of a life you deserve
[00:45.089]How can I live to look you in the eye knowing you've got to scrape by with the money you have inside of your purse
[00:50.720]My career isn't paying so why am I trying to write a verse?
[00:53.515]I can't support our little angel in this unstable line of work
[00:56.571]And without you by my side I'm done with my time on earth
[00:59.124]I'm feeling my life's a curse if I'm here the cycle turns
[01:02.181]My examples of what not to do when growing up is how I've learned
[01:04.752]So don't let the children hear this so they know what life is first, please
[01:08.583]Which way will I take?
[01:11.126]Which road will bring me back to hope?
[01:13.952]My thousand pathways so far from where I wanna be
[01:19.350]Which way will I take?
[01:22.439]Which road will bring me back to hope?
[01:25.481]My thousand pathways so far from where I wanna be
[01:30.860]My dear kids
[01:31.886]I don't know how to start this
[01:33.410]Your dad's a **** up - a stupid ****ing bastard
[01:36.235]A stupid ****ing....arrrrgh
[01:38.026]I'm supposed to be a parent
[01:39.309]Can't say goodbye without getting pissed off and swearing
[01:41.850]And it's okay if you hate me - I wouldn't like me either
[01:44.660]I didn't want to do this
[01:46.192]I didn't want to leave ya
[01:47.470]But mummy said I'm useless and I'm starting to believe her
[01:50.280]I hope you're ****ing happy bitch - I wish I didn't meet ya
[01:53.346]I never wanted this
[01:54.609]I didn't want to quit
[01:56.130]I'm sorry kids but I don't want to live
[01:58.160]I got nothing to offer
[01:59.694]I wish I had a lot to give
[02:01.229]Wish I didn't have such a ****ed up family when I was a kid
[02:04.524]I wish God had given me a brain
[02:05.786]I wish I wasn't in pain
[02:07.324]I wish this vodka could wash it away
[02:10.589]What can I say?
[02:11.557]In another life we might meet
[02:13.091]Just promise that you won't be like me
[02:16.143]Which way will I take?
[02:18.965]Which road will bring me back to hope?
[02:21.797]My thousand pathways so far from where I wanna be
[02:27.400]Which way will I take?
[02:29.949]Which road will bring me back to hope?
[02:33.024]My thousand pathways so far from where I wanna be
[02:38.635]What the **** am I doing here?
[02:40.164]Why is my crib candlelit?
[02:41.174]And where's my ****ing phone?
[02:42.711]I need to call an ambulance
[02:44.261]If I ****ing die here I ain't coming back from it
[02:46.814]Open your ****ing eyes close your
[02:48.603]Everything's going black I think it's actually happening
[02:51.925]What a ****ing change
[02:53.201]And this is just an accident
[02:54.723]I love my family so much
[02:56.011]Can't live to see my dad upset
[02:57.277]Need to be there for my little daughter
[02:59.576]I thought I coulda brought you happiness
[03:01.110]My brother's in prison
[03:02.124]I'm supposed to visit
[03:03.639]When the screws bring him the news
[03:04.907]How's he gonna handle it?
[03:06.915]He just wants me to succeed
[03:08.174]I don't need this rappin' shit
[03:09.456]I've been taking tablets for weeks
[03:10.726]The last time I saw my sister I freaked out and smashed her whip
[03:13.817]Threw her down a set of stairs
[03:15.338]And since then I haven't slept
[03:16.838]Told myself my life wasn't supposed to happen yet
[03:19.128]I can't maintain or manage this
[03:20.912]Am I paranoid or passionate?
[03:22.712]We all suffer deep down
[03:24.229]Inside we're all battlin' but don't want to admit it
[03:26.997]We're blind to what we're damaging
[03:28.799]Anger is contagious
[03:29.815]And they just blame the cannabis
[03:31.359]But I've always felt like this even before I had a spliff
[03:33.924]Just too ashamed to say it to your face because I'm a man and shit
[03:36.734]And that ain't masculine
[03:38.770]And I find this kinda embarassing
[03:42.070]****ing baffling
[03:43.603]Every relationship I've ever had has had a tragic end
[03:47.181]When it was only just beginning
[03:48.723]Cause mum you ****ed me up and now I have no trust in women
[03:51.529]I'm just waiting for my girl to cheat
[03:53.052]That's how little trust is given
[03:54.587]I can't make my girl a single mum that's ****ing unforgiving
[03:56.872]I love you to the moon and back
[03:58.926]So we ain't married yet
[04:00.448]There ain't a day that goes by where I don't imagine it
[04:04.238]You looking fire in the baddest dress
[04:06.017]Carrying our little madam in the back of the chariot
[04:09.847]While I admire your fashion sense
[04:11.378]That's the life I had in mind
[04:13.147]I applied for this
[04:14.686]I don't wanna die
[04:16.475]Now panic's set in
[04:18.544]Goodbye to everything I haven't said
[04:20.596]Which way will I take?
[04:23.154]Which road will bring me back to hope?
[04:25.976]My thousand pathways so far from where I wanna be
[04:31.601]Which way will I take?
[04:34.634]Which road will bring me back to hope?
[04:37.199]My thousand pathways so far from where I wanna be
[04:42.763]So far from
[04:44.293]So far from
[04:45.557]So far from where I wanna be
[04:48.346]So far from
[04:49.877]So far from
[04:51.153]So far from where I wanna be
[04:53.967]So far from
[04:55.243]So far from
[04:57.029]So far from where I wanna be
[04:59.566]So far from
[05:00.851]So far from
[05:02.627]So far from where I wanna be