closed casket - ohsobrkn.mp3

[00:22.383] Honestly I’m too scared right now
[00:24.088] Got a lot to do I don’t care right now
[00:25.976] Yeah I’ve been the lid to the cup How I bottle it all up
[00:28.132] But I got a lot to share right now
[00:29.641] I’ve been thinking that Life might be better without me
[00:31.494] I try to do better But I always doubt me
[00:33.480] I wanna be happy My head won’t allow me
[00:35.741] Who put all this water inside of my room
[00:37.244] Bruh I feel like drowning
[00:38.303] I’ve been staying in my head too much
[00:39.373] I’ve been in my bed Feeling dead too much
[00:41.186] Haven’t had a good day Its been two months
[00:43.021] Man I’m losing motivation And I cannot take this
[00:45.056] It’s way too much Bro where is home?
[00:46.582] Got friends But I’m so alone
[00:47.665] I know God’s tryna call
[00:48.739] I can hear the phone
[00:49.716] But I’ve been hitting decline And my heart is cold
[00:51.537] God I’m sorry I’ve been gone But I need you close
[00:53.412] Oh yeah I’ve been tripping
[00:53.907] I say that I’m a Christian I say that I’m Godly
[00:55.967] But acting so different I’m needing repentance
[00:57.801] Got lost in my living I know that He’s risen
[00:59.726] It’s time that I listen I’ve been afraid
[01:01.856] Deep in the waves
[01:02.884] Deep in my guilt Now I’m feeling ashamed
[01:04.805] I need some prayer To heal all the pain
[01:06.687] Fixing my heart While He’s breaking the chains
[01:08.621] I’m alive Breathing in a closed casket
[01:12.551] Open eyes In a never-ending blackness
[01:16.353] Feel my dreams Getting harder to imagine
[01:19.548] I’m getting wooden splinters From the coffin that I’m trapped in
[01:23.377] And I don’t wanna lose you
[01:26.289] I’m not really feeling Like I use to
[01:30.081] God I need your light
[01:31.731] In a world of a never-ending blackness
[01:35.454] I’m alive Breathing in a closed casket
[01:39.309] I feel like I’m buried alive
[01:41.349] I don’t got nowhere to hide
[01:43.138] I fill up my mental with lies
[01:44.543] And all of the time
[01:45.539] They tell me I’m fine
[01:47.051] Or they just tell me to quit
[01:48.473] Tell me I suck, and I start giving in
[01:50.347] Rip all the pages I wrote with this pen
[01:52.152] My doubt builds a casket And throws me within
[01:54.567] Running away from all the pain
[01:56.106] I can never escape
[01:56.942] No matter the pace
[01:57.682] The place I can never erase
[01:58.774] Running circles around myself But never winning the race
[02:00.654] Instead running from my pain I probably need to go pray
[02:02.469] Why am I breathing? I feel like a demon
[02:04.200] I know I’m alive But I don’t know the reason
[02:06.087] I’ve been overthinking And God you’ve been telling me
[02:08.097] That you’re enough And I finally believe it
[02:10.077] I’m alive Breathing in a closed casket
[02:13.819] Open eyes In a never-ending blackness
[02:17.708] Feel my dreams Getting harder to imagine
[02:20.933] I’m getting wooden splinters From the coffin that I’m trapped in
[02:24.739] And I don’t wanna lose you
[02:27.699] I’m not really feeling Like I use to
[02:31.607] God I need your light
[02:33.163] In a world of a never-ending blackness
[02:36.862] I’m alive Breathing in a closed casket