[00:00.000] 作词 : Keyanta Bullard[00:00.000] 作曲 : Keyanta Bullard[00:00.000](Cash walked down this beat, uh)[00:00.185][00:01.144][Verse 1][00:05.821]I found myself drownin' in water, askin' them for to save me[00:09.247]I know one day when I die, they gon' do nothin' but replace me[00:12.122]Feds on my line, I swear, lately, I been goin' crazy[00:14.998]I been dealin' with so much, but I can't let it break me[00:16.310][00:17.051][Chorus][00:19.047]I swear, I don't wanna live this life no more[00:23.376]I swear, I ain't got it in me to fight no more[00:25.817]I'm already drunk, but I drink some more[00:29.378]I'm dealin' with my pain, but I can't ignore it[00:30.663][00:31.425][00:32.361][Verse 2][00:32.687]My mic been my therapy, but I been holdin' back on our conversation[00:35.191]What they sayin' has been gettin' to me, but I been actin' like that shit don't phase me[00:38.190]It's a bag on my head and they say crime don't pay[00:41.588]Since I was born, been goin' through it, the trials and tribulations[00:44.998]They all backstabbed me, I don't even know if I can go trust my brother[00:47.872]I almost shed a tear today, me think about leavin' my brothers[00:50.755]Like how you did some foul shit behind my back, knowin' that we got each other[00:53.600]For the beef, yeah, I won, but to the streets, I lost my brother[00:56.542]To the opps, I was thinkin' of 'em, but they make my life no better[00:59.508]I gave my heart to you, it's gold, treat my heart like treasure[01:02.353]I ain't used to feelin' love, forgive me, I don't know no better[01:05.779]I been broke, been tryna stay strong, but they don't see it through[01:08.649]Can't believe when you say, "Forever," one day, you gon' leave me too[01:11.491]Just me 'cause I got money, but you don't what I been through[01:14.436]Battlin' my thoughts when I'm alone, even when I'm right next to you[01:17.373]Started out as an army, now I'm down to a few[01:20.821]How the **** can I lead when I don't know what to do?[01:22.065][01:23.404][Chorus][01:24.114]I swear, I don't wanna live this life no more[01:25.845]I swear, I ain't got it in me to fight no more[01:28.815]I'm already drunk, but I drink some more[01:31.623]I'm dealin' with my pain, but I can't ignore it[01:32.875][01:33.610][Verse 3][01:34.874]All this fame ****in' up my reality[01:38.247]They constantly doin' me dirty, they doin' it casually[01:40.602]They treatin' me like I ain't human, that's just what they doin' to me[01:44.050]How can I put y'all all first and still focus on me?[01:47.380]I was tryna clean y'all life up, but y'all all threw dirt on me[01:50.327]Fightin' this war, go through this storm, wasn't nobody else but me[01:53.680]And I just know what money bring, more problems for me[01:58.897]Nobody to solve it but me, put it all on me[02:01.275]Picture this, me dyin', it ain't no more of me[02:05.003]I been goin' through so much, mama havin' death threats[02:08.390]Any moment, I can die, I don't know if I'ma die next[02:11.243]I left my house without my gun when death sittin' 'round the corner[02:14.186]Clutchin' on my gun tight, knowin' that I'm a goner[02:16.083][Chorus][02:17.144]I swear, I don't wanna live this life no more[02:19.488]I swear, I ain't got it in me to fight no more[02:22.431]I'm already drunk, but I drink some more[02:25.796]I'm dealin' with my pain, but I can't ignore it