[00:00.000] 作词 : Katie Stump/Davin Kingston[00:01.000] 作曲 : Katie Stump/Davin Kingston[00:03.553]I got used to tears on my shirt sleeves[00:06.754]Panic attacks getting groceries[00:09.955]Deep breaths and incense and heartbeats[00:13.466]The simplest of things could break me[00:16.176]I got used to rationalizing[00:19.532]The trauma with fake silver linings[00:22.898]And living felt more like surviving[00:26.147]I never thought that I'd stop crying[00:29.040]Ooh, ooh-ooh, I'm finally healing my wounds[00:33.476]Spent so long broken in two, tryna glue back the pieces[00:37.592]I don't know what peace is or who I am[00:41.303]When the chaos goes away[00:47.028]Why do I kinda wish it stayed?[00:53.582]I spent a year trying to make it out[00:56.672]And I don't know how to function now[01:00.462]When the chaos goеs away[01:04.926]Why am I still not okay?[01:10.686]I can't even sleep through the wholе night[01:13.911]Or go by myself on a long drive[01:17.093]Will I be like this my whole life?[01:20.655]Already paid my price[01:22.095]Maybe I spent so long outrunning my past[01:25.437]That I still can't help looking back[01:28.743]Will I always be waiting[01:31.804]For my whole world to cave in?[01:35.874]Ooh, ooh-ooh, took so much time getting used[01:40.638]To everything breaking in two, tryna glue back the pieces[01:44.685]I don't know what peace is or who I am[01:48.455]When the chaos goes away[01:54.270]Why do I kinda wish it stayed?[02:00.668]I spent a year trying to make it out[02:03.911]And I don't know how to function now[02:07.651]When the chaos goes away[02:12.081]Why am I still not okay?[02:27.185]Fighting the pain gave me a purpose[02:30.655]I pulled my demons up to the surface[02:33.895]I made a home in all the discomfort[02:37.070]I found myself in all the dysfunction[02:40.339]I got so sick of asking for help but I[02:43.513]Still can't take care of myself, I got[02:46.686]So used to living through hell[02:49.374]That I feel so lost anywhere else[02:52.743]When the chaos goes away[02:58.255]Why do I kinda wish it stayed?