Trying - Russ.mp3

[00:00.000] 作词 : Jake Jepson/Mihji Grey/Kiran Gerbi
[00:00.559] 作曲 : Jake Jepson/Mihji Grey/Kiran Gerbi
[00:01.119]My younger self loved getting drunk but he misunderstood it
[00:04.299]He made his liver handle anything his heart just couldn't
[00:07.417]I started looking for myself, my compass constantly would spin
[00:10.800]A smart man looks around, a wise man looks within, yeah
[00:14.333]I'm digging deeper, I'm tryna just stop suppressing shit
[00:17.144]You give somebody money once, they might just start expecting it
[00:20.428]Then resentment builds after that first time you refuse
[00:23.342]But givers need to set boundaries 'cause takers never do
[00:25.983]I swear I'm trying
[00:29.079]I think that's all I can do
[00:32.113]There's no denying
[00:35.247]That old habits keep slipping through
[00:38.731]And I know that I won't
[00:41.283]Ever have it all figured out, oh, no
[00:44.134]That's not gon' stop me
[00:48.053]From trying, trying, trying
[00:51.450]Navigating internal chaos, don't get a day off
[00:54.286]Sometimes I feel dead inside, self talks feel like a seance
[00:57.735]Praying for the strength to investigate, not ignore
[01:00.434]I gotta stop banging on walls hoping they turn into a door
[01:03.493]I'm feelin' torn though, my comfort zone is now a war zone
[01:07.025]Ashamed at my own sadness, I feel betrayed by my own hormones
[01:10.258]I'm chasing congruency, I'm craving community
[01:13.306]Told my girl, "I love you, but my life can't just be you and me"
[01:15.770]I swear I'm trying
[01:18.853]I think that's all I can do
[01:22.071]There's no denying
[01:25.122]That old habits keep slipping through
[01:28.585]And I know that I won't
[01:31.173]Ever have it all figured out, oh, no
[01:34.106]That's not gon' stop me
[01:37.925]From trying, trying, trying
[01:40.901]I gotta problem with enabling my family, it's disabling
[01:44.536]Scared to face my demons but when I do, it makes my angels sing
[01:47.582]Stressed 'cause it's the season of celebrating and grieving
[01:50.669]The grays poppin' out like Liam Neeson
[01:52.892]How long will they be open to receiving my message
[01:55.654]I'm thirty-two now
[01:56.909]If you were in the genre that I'm in, you'd worry too now
[01:59.880]My family all relies on me
[02:01.558]I gotta fear of being seen, but for their sake, please keep your eyes on me
[02:05.665]I swear I'm trying
[02:08.767]I think that's all I can do
[02:11.917]There's no denying
[02:14.985]That old habits keep slipping through
[02:18.486]And I know that I won't
[02:21.022]Ever have it all figured out, oh, no
[02:23.954]That's not gon' stop me
[02:27.771]From trying, trying, trying