[00:05.016]It's January 1st 2021[00:08.950]And I'm in my feelings[00:12.436]And I just wanna rap[00:14.583]**** a hook[00:18.142]Yeah, why do I feel like I'm depressed[00:21.361]I feel like my whole life is a mother****ing stress[00:23.450]Sometimes I see the news and wish that I could die next[00:25.748]It's a crippling feeling that most could never digest[00:28.064]Every January 1st I don't wanna wake up[00:30.404]That's the day I met this girl who totally ****ed me up[00:32.775]Mentally, the PTSD's hurt and all of it sucks[00:35.237]It left a hole chest that money can't cover up[00:37.604]Was never enough, I felt it deep in my bones[00:39.844]Always feeling disconnected, always glued to my phone[00:42.237]Tired of fakes friends, I cut them off so now I'm alone[00:44.691]They don't love me for me they only love me cuz I'm known[00:47.003]I got fans who support me and wanna see me win[00:49.326]But I feel like a loser Im a need a bottle of gin[00:51.837]I made a million dollars but there's nothing to give[00:54.190]If there's a god, tell me where has he been[00:55.932]I been searching for real[00:57.146]Every new years, I get in my feels[00:58.903]Cuz I hate the way that I ****ing feel[01:00.635]I got scars that don't heal[01:01.931]It's a new year but it's the same pain in my heart[01:04.197]And that's a hurt thats gon' stick with me still[01:06.097]I wonder if real love is something that I can find[01:08.420]In a world full a fakes who keep wasting my time[01:10.800]I been questioning my faith and I'm loosing my mind[01:13.139]If god is real then show me sign