[00:00.00] 作词 : Shawn Anderson/Montaze Dwanne Armstrong Sr[00:01.00] 作曲 : Shawn Anderson[00:04.11]I ’m fighting multiple complications[00:14.70]my momma stressed got all the doctors racin[00:16.80]I see a msn in the corner contemplatin[00:18.90]is that my father? Look how dark his face is, wow, a black king descendent from the lost nations[00:24.06]my mom, the beautiful opposite, almost pure white as a snow angel[00:27.81]I hope I’m not a large burden, I hope your both able[00:30.90]I hope I’m going home tonight to sleep inside my cradle[00:34.02]but this cord has got me strangled[00:35.94]I’m unable to unwrap it by myself[00:38.31]I’ m feeling trapped and I need help[00:40.98]then I got, relief[00:42.51]I took a breath, I heard the doctor speak[00:44.70]yellin push, all I see is blood and yellow puss[00:48.54]and then I felt a feeling like I telaported[00:51.81]my mom looked at me and said you are my first born[01:21.57]Now the doctors operatin[01:23.16]my mom looking at me like no not my baby[01:26.16]I’m not inside you no more but I feel your heart racing[01:29.52]I incubated 9 months that’s time for contemplation[01:32.73]and now you stressed cuz the surgeon couldn’t promise that I’ll make it[01:36.51]still no matter what our bond is sacred[01:38.97]don’t beat yourself up with memories that we didn’t make yet[01:42.30]All these wires on me, there’s 6 other babies in the ICU but I feel cold and lonely[01:50.22]I think a long time has passed u fell asleep on me[01:53.43]if I wasn’t in this clear bubble you could hold me closely[01:57.48]and just when I thought I was alone I heard the first 3 words of my life, your going home