Anxious - Vin Jay.mp3

[00:15.020] (I don't know how much more of this I can take
[00:18.922] My thoughts controlling me
[00:20.419] My fears controlling me
[00:22.691] I'm anxious)
[00:23.541]
[00:24.115] I've been feeling anxious
[00:26.110] Feeling like a slave to my mind, I just wanna be free
[00:30.058] I've been feeling anxious
[00:32.221] And when I look around there ain't nobody feeling like me
[00:36.144] I've been feeling anxious
[00:38.440] Hoping that I make it through the pain, got me begging, God, please
[00:42.209] I've been feeling anxious
[00:44.500] Feeling like a slave to my mind, I just wanna be free
[00:48.192]
[00:49.711] I'm waking up in a panic ripping my chest tight
[00:52.365] Can't wait till I can see the end of all these stress nights
[00:55.550] But I'm a soldier, so, I'mma put my best fight
[00:58.507] And pray to God that I won't have to suffer in my next life
[01:01.883] Whenever I'm out in public I start to panic
[01:04.627] I'm always on the edge like something is gonna happen
[01:07.694] The worst case possible is what my mind imagines
[01:10.698] And this shit could get triggered by the slightest interaction
[01:13.890] It's like it always makes you focus on your biggest fears
[01:17.202] And it reminds you that you'll never make them disappear
[01:20.191] And when your mind is crystal clear
[01:22.041] This shit will interfere like don't you ever try to be driven or even switching gears
[01:26.467] I'm going ballistic, I'm broken, no one can fix it
[01:29.128] And I don't want Physicians just tryna feed me prescriptions
[01:31.885] The pills I've been given gon beat me into submission
[01:35.085] Cause the chemical imbalance controlling my whole existence
[01:37.900]
[01:38.210] I've been feeling anxious
[01:39.979] Feeling like a slave to my mind, I just wanna be free
[01:43.631] I've been feeling anxious
[01:46.184] And when I look around there ain't nobody feeling like me
[01:50.019] I've been feeling anxious
[01:52.268] Hoping that I make it through the pain, got me begging, God, please
[01:56.191] I've been feeling anxious
[01:58.286] Feeling like a slave to my mind, I just wanna be free
[02:01.088]
[02:02.436] Sometimes I leave a room in the middle of conversation
[02:06.269] All because I'm anxious and feels like my heart's racing
[02:08.937] It feels like, I've lost all controls of this situation
[02:11.995] Guess it's time to hit the doctor for some stronger medication
[02:15.263] But now, I'm just sedated, I'm walking around like a zombie
[02:18.251] A mother****ing shell of myself for carbon copy
[02:21.493] Don't want this shit inside me there's poison all in my body
[02:24.348] All my days begin to blend and my memories getting spotty
[02:27.585] So, I'm just hoping that one day I'll live in peace
[02:30.759] Was born a dreamer but I swear this shit is bittersweet
[02:34.143] I'm nice at rapping but it's time to pick a different dream
[02:36.922] Can't get up on the stage, I swear that thought alone just cripples me
[02:40.033] And I'm not looking for sympathy or no love
[02:42.987] I just hate that I'm anxious and feel like I'm giving up
[02:45.784] When the only cure is self isolation and taking drugs
[02:48.919] If you knew what it was like I bet you prolly wouldn't judge
[02:51.818]
[02:52.049] I've been feeling anxious
[02:53.660] Feeling like a slave to my mind, I just wanna be free
[02:57.681] I've been feeling anxious
[02:59.982] And when I look around there ain't nobody feeling like me
[03:03.835] I've been feeling anxious
[03:06.106] Hoping that I make it through the pain, got me begging, God, please
[03:09.902] I've been feeling anxious
[03:11.998] Feeling like a slave to my mind, I just wanna be free